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Wednesday, December 16, 2015

6 Things I Will Not Carry Into The New Year

For my followers who are in other parts of the country; YES, I'm sleeveless. I'm still in New Jersey. It's just kinda hard to blog my snowsuit when It's 71 degrees out. Yes, SEVENTY-ONE. Be jealous.
I mean, it's not like I care about the weather anyway. I will wear shorts, stockings, & thick socks at any given moment. 

When I turned 21 this November, I hit another level of don'tgiveawhatness. Like, I'm really shedding the fear of just being myself. I realized on a different level how life is so very short. Do you know how quick a year turns to 5yrs? Or 5yrs to 10yrs?! That's why I don't have time to be unhappy with me. I'd die of old age waiting for perfection. Nope. Not I.

I can love my strengths while working on my imperfections. I'll let the others discuss the negatives while I simply work on them-- with an Arizona Ice Tea from the corner store in South Trenton smile (ain't no Kool-Aid smile, bih).  Anywho, I always reflect on my year. What can I use to better myself? What did I learn and how can I use it to help others? What caused most of my failures? Where did all my money go? Why am I so freaking awesome? Why did God make me so amazing? & Most importantly, what are some of the things I need to leave in 2015? Hmmm....

Let's Go.
1. Insecurities that I won't live up to the expectations of others.
I already have high standards.
Keep yours for yourself.
(or ya mom. whatever floats your boat.)
2. Being unprepared.
9 times out of 10 if I'm unprepared I was just being LAZY.
Always rushing, forgetting things, procrastinating = Lazy.
But since I'm not gonna be speaking negatively about me...
I'll rephrase that to what my older brother says.
"You're not a procrastinator, you're just motivate by deadlines."
-Keith Scurry

3. Depending on others to do things that I can do for myself.
HUGE one.
I have a resume tweaker, a car cleaner, a clothes folder, an eyelash guru, a food runner,
a person who prints everything I need, a ticket payer...
It's really bad. This is why I need to be rich because they all deserve a salary.
I'm definitely making changes in this area!
Shoutout to my friends who keep me sane.
They'll be in my comments, I'm sure.

4. Taking on impossible tasks.
Has someone ever asked you to do something...
but you & Jesus knew that you weren't gonna do it?
In my mind I'm saying "Now you know darn well".
But outwardly I'm smiling and agreeing.
I wish I could do everything my friends/family need me to do but
I'm learning to say "NO".
So, January 1st, just know when you call--the answer is NO.
I actually like saying no though...

5. Negative Energy/People
If it used to make you happy but just doesn't anymore, leave it where it is.
Even if it hurts to let go of.
We love our family & friends but sometimes we have to love them at a distance.
Give no one the power to control your emotions. 
Sometimes we are that negative energy.
In that case, we have to change our thinking!
Happiness is a consistent pattern of THOUGHTS.
You control your thoughts. 

A million dreams, ideas, & inventions are killed by fear. 
Simply because no one wants to be a failure. 
If I continue to let the fear of everyone watching me fail prevent me from trying, I don't deserve that dream!
So I'm telling you now, you will see me attempt new things, outside of my comfort zone.
Laugh if you will.
It's okay.
I understand it makes you uncomfortable to see me in another light.
Don't tell me to stay in my lane.
You stay in your box & watch me create my OWN lane!

I had so much fun shooting this blog.
I was listening to Maybe by Alina Baraz & Galimatias.
That entire album is so creative. 
I don't think there's a song I don't like on it.
I've learned so much about me this year that I can't wait to master the next few years.
I recently told someone in a debate that I'm almost perfect. 
I'm sure they thought I was loopy but I just realy meant that I'm getting there. 
I've made a lifelong commitment to improve everything about me.
Yea, maybe that's what I should've said.
Oh, yea to all my haters that had a problem with me turning 21 another year...
Why do you care if God is extending my twenties?
Always tryna bust me out on facebook...
Gon' say "Wait, when did you graduate HS?"
I said "Listen, I don't know what to tell you girl. Take that up with God."
*rolls eyes*
I know there are some changes you'll be making soon. 
Which one of these things was most helpful to you?
Comment below!!!

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